TeenHealthFX - Answers - Best Friend Is keeping Me Alive

Suicide / Question
Published: January 13, 2005

Dear TeenHealthFX,

Please help. I'm afriad I'm gonna kill myself soon. My mom wont get off my back about school and wont let me get on with my own life. I'm 14 and my sister just using me as her whipping post. I hate it and I think I might beat her. The only thing keeping me alvive is my friend ****** and this girl I'm like in love with, but she has no intrest in me which just makes me more deppresed. I have already got help and im on Wellbutrin but I dont like it it makes me frusatrated because i cant cry when I really want to and it made me have a huge panic attack that lasted about an hour. I cant stand it, it makes me crazy im always getting more and more pissed except when im by *****. Im really REALLY happy it almost unreal but when I'm away from her I put on an act a real good one I had it on for 2 years I need help im always tired pissed off or sad. I'm gonna kill my self soon. Help

Signed: Best Friend Is keeping Me Alive

Dear Best Friend Is keeping Me Alive,

You really have a lot going on and FX can see why you are feeling so badly. Since you sound so desperate and you are seriously contemplating ending your life, you need to get help immediately. If you live in northern New Jersey, please call Morristown Memorial Crisis Hotline at 973.540.0100. Outside this area, please call Suicide and Crisis Hotline at 800.999.9999. If at any point you feel you are in danger of harming yourself call 9-1-1 or go to your nearest hospital emergency room.

Having panic attacks, feeling angry and being down are all signs that you need to speak to a therapist. Things may look pretty bleak right now, but please do not end your life. With counseling and maybe a change in medication (there are many different ones that a doctor can try with you - based on your symptoms), you can start to feel better.

FX is glad that you have a close friend that you like and feel good about. However, it is a bit worrisome that you disagree with your sister to the point of wanting to "beat her". It is normal to disagree and argue with family members, but when that emotion turns into physical aggression it is definitely time to talk about it with a professional.

Signed: TeenHealthFX