Suicide / Question
Published: April 13, 2004
Dear TeenHealthFX,
For a year now I have been really depressed and suicidal. I cut my self and continuously overdosed on sleeping pills. I received help once last September for suicidal ideation and another time in Oct. for suicide attempt. I got better overall with an occasional relapse where I would feel really depressed and suicidal and cut myself. I stopped cutting myself for 3 months, but have started back up. I'm again very depressed and have suicidal ideations. No one really listens to me; I think that they are just sick of hearing it. I see a therapist, but she just thinks its part of the recovery. No matter how hard I try to explain how I am feeling they don't understand. I even overdosed and went into the hospital, but my mom just told them my blood sugar was up and my therapist really didn't say anything at all. I feel so alone. I am scared to live; yet I am scared to die. Not that I am scared, but I know that it is wrong and I would hurt my loved ones if I did kill myself. I am just afraid that I will feel like this all of my life with no one understanding me. Feeling all alone and hopeless has a big part of me wanting to die. I just need help; somehow, I am scared I will get too depressed and out of control again. Please tell me, what am I to do?
Signed: Scared, Lonely & Hopeless
Dear Scared, Lonely & Hopeless,
TeenHealthFX recommends that you bring in your question to us to your therapist so he or she can understand how depressed you are feeling. By being open and honest with your emotions and the fact that you are cutting yourself and feeling suicidal, your therapist and your parents will grasp that you need more intensive help.
Your therapist can help you constructively deal with these emotions and pinpoint the root of them. It is important that your therapist know everything that you are thinking. He/she may want you to be evaluated by a psychiatrist to see if medication would be helpful to you.
If you feel that, you may kill yourself or are afraid of your impulses, seek help immediately by dialing 9-1-1. You can also call the Suicide and Crisis Hotline at 1-800-999-9999, 24 hours, 7 days a week. In northern New Jersey, you can call the crisis hotline at Morristown Memorial hospital at 973-540-0100.
Signed: TeenHealthFX
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