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Why Do I Need Drugs To Feel Good Or Go On With My Day?

Published: December 19, 2013
Dear TeenHealthFX,
i have been smoking marijuana for about 2 years now, and it has been off and on. i went to rehab this past summer of 08' and i thought it was going good til my birthday when i relapsed and actually the day before that was my last time there, i never returned but completed the out patient program. Through out the whole rehab everything was good with my family which was impossible to believe. but i just feel like throughout the whole rehab that this was just something that made my family closer n better living style at home. but just like i thought, a month after i was out, everything at home just turned the same, my mother never shuts up and is always yelling, and everything at home jus went downhill. i have gone back to smoking everyday but it has just gotten to pricey and me being jobless, now i only smoke whenever i get the cash. i guess my question comes down to why do i feel like i need to be on something to feel good or just go on with day???? i have been popping pills since i cant get the cash for weed. i dont buy the pills. i stole them from a family member... i have been on vike, lexabro, xanax, releflex. sometimes if i dont feel them i will snort them just to get a high...i know the damage is inevitable to my liver. i have gone about a month without doing anything and i was proud of myself but i just cant stop thinking about weed or getting high....i guess it doesnt help being bored all day alone with nothing to do. i just need some advice or something. i know i can stop anytime if i really really tried, but i just wanted to have fun and enjoy the effects...i dont want to feel like i need something to feel good....idk.....advice please?????
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Dear Why Do I Need Drugs To Feel Good Or Go On With My Day?,


TeenHealthFX thinks that it is important for you to be back in your rehab program. Being dependent on prescription medications (especially ones that are not even prescribed for you) is an extremely dangerous thing – and FX is very concerned about how much your physical health is currently being compromised. It sounds like you had a good experience the last time you were in the rehab in terms of how much you felt it helped you – so we do think you should look into going back.


As far as your need to use some kind of drug to feel good or get through the day, it sounds like there are family dynamics which have made it hard for you to feel happy and motivated without having to rely on some kind of substance. From what you said in your letter, what helped you to feel better was when you felt your family was operating in a closer, more caring way – and what contributed to your being back on drugs was feeling like it all went “downhill” and back to the way it had originally been. That said, FX thinks that part of your rehab treatment needs to be dealing with these family problems. Whether this involves doing more extensive family therapy while you are in rehab, ensuring that follow-up family treatment is in place when you complete your rehab program, or helping you learn how to cope more effectively when you do experience the family going downhill – it is important that you are clear in rehab what contributed to your relapse and that you come up with a plan with your treatment providers of how to deal with this familial relapse trigger.


Family dynamics can have a powerful impact on children and teens. If children and teens do not feel their home environments are loving, safe places where they can feel understood and cared for, it is easy for those children and teens to feel depressed. It is also easy for them to have difficulties in feeling good enough about life and themselves to look forward to what the day brings them and to make good things happen for themselves. FX thinks that addressing this family component will be important for as you address your substance abuse issues. Please make arrangements to get yourself help as soon as possible, as you are really putting yourself in harm’s way by abusing these prescription drugs.


If you live in northern New Jersey and need help finding a therapist you can call the Access Center from Atlantic Behavioral Health at 888-247-1400. Outside of this area you can log onto the US Department of Health and Human Services Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration website for referrals in your area. You can also contact your insurance company to get a list of in-network mental health providers or check with your school social worker or psychologist to get a list of referrals in your area.


You can also contact the National Institute on Drug Abuse & Alcoholism at 1-888-644-6432.

Signed: TeenHealthFX