TeenHealthFX would like to start by clarifying what an abusive dating relationship looks like. TeensHealth has a very informative article on Abusive Relationships that you could take a look at. They offer the following information about abusive relationships:
What Is Abuse?
Abuse can be physical, emotional, or sexual. Physical abuse means any form of violence, such as hitting, punching, pulling hair, and kicking. Abuse can happen in both dating relationships and friendships.
Emotional abuse (stuff like teasing, bullying, and humiliating others) can be difficult to recognize because it doesn't leave any visible scars. Threats, intimidation, putdowns, and betrayal are all harmful forms of emotional abuse that can really hurt — not just during the time it's happening, but long afterward, too.
Sexual abuse can happen to anyone, guy or girl. It's never right to be forced into any type of sexual experience that you don't want.
They also outline important warning signs of an abusive relationship:
Important warning signs that you may be involved in an abusive relationship include when someone:
Based on what you described and the information presented above, TeenHealthFX would not describe this dating relationship as abusive in nature. That doesn’t mean the relationship didn’t have its share of problems for you or things that bothered you, but that doesn’t necessarily make it abusive in nature.
It sounds to TeenHealthFX like your girlfriend was not feeling secure in the relationship and feeling like she was getting the love and attention from you that she wanted. And, at times, she became so focused on this need she neglected some of yours (like when your mother passed). Unfortunately, she was not able to communicate this to you in a healthy way. She actually went to some really unhealthy extremes to communicate her needs. And when she would do this with you, it sounds like it only served to irritate you or make you want to pull back from her (which is a common reaction). And the more you pulled back, the more she would do these things that bothered you – and on and on goes the cycle.
Clearly the relationship was not working for you, and FX can understand why given what you described. The fact that you were able to end a relationship that you were not happy with is definitely a good thing.
If you are concerned about future relationships, FX invites you to consider the following:
If you live in northern New Jersey and need help finding a therapist you can call the Access Center from Atlantic Behavioral Health at 888-247-1400. Outside of this area you can log onto the US Department of Health and Human Services Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration website for referrals in your area. You can also contact your insurance company to get a list of in-network mental health providers or check with your school social worker or psychologist to get a list of referrals in your area.