Almost Raped By Brother And Neighbor
This type of incident could certainly feel traumatizing for a young child. Your instincts at the time were telling you that you were in some kind of danger – and to feel that way with a close family member can certainly be traumatic. What has also probably been hard for you is that this terrible memory of your brother may have created this conflict in you between the part of you that cares for him and the part of you that feels hurt and angry about what he and your neighbor did (or tried to do) to you.
Since you mentioned that you have felt suicidal and depressed in the past and currently – it is definitely possible that this experience has contributed to those feelings. However, FX also thinks that there have probably been other issues that have played a part in how you have been feeling as well. FX thinks that it is very important that you speak to a trusted adult about feeling depressed and suicidal, and about this incident that occurred when you were younger. Therapy can be expensive, however, there are ways to receive help without paying a ton out of pocket. Read through some of the options of how you can get help for yourself listed below, and make sure you reach out to someone as soon as possible so you can get the help you need to feel better and so you do not have to suffer with all of this all on your own anymore.
- If you have health insurance, you can contact your insurance company to get a list of in-network mental health/substance abuse treatment providers. With in-network providers you will only have to pay a copayment for visits with a therapist and/or psychiatrist. If you live in northern New Jersey you can also call the Access Center from Atlantic Behavioral Health at 888-247-1400. Outside of this area you can log onto the US Department of Health and Human Services Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration website for referrals.
- If you do not have health insurance, there are many hospitals and clinics which offer no-cost therapy or therapy based on a sliding scale where payment is dependent upon a person’s income. You can contact hospitals and mental health agencies in the area to find out what is available.
- Most schools have psychologists and social workers on staff to help the students who are dealing with various emotional issues. FX suggests that you reach out to a social worker or psychologist in your school so that they can meet with you regularly or help you to obtain affordable services elsewhere.
- New Jersey offers a program called Charity Care, which offers health insurance to those who are uninsured or underinsured. To get more information about Charity Care, you can contact 1-866-588-5696. If you do not live in NJ, you can contact your local hospital or state government agency to find out what insurance assistance programs are available in your state.
- In northern New Jersey, you can contact First Call for Help at 2-1-1 or 1-800-HELP-555 for referral information in your area. If you live outside of NJ, you can do an online search for First Call for Help and the name of your state, as this service is available in areas outside of NJ.
If you get to the point that you are seriously considering suicide or are afraid of your impulses then you need to seek help immediately. You can call 911 or go to your nearest hospital emergency room. In northern New Jersey you can also call the crisis hotline from Morristown Memorial hospital at 973-540-0100. Outside this area call the Suicide & Crisis Hotline, 1-800-999-9999, 24 hours, 7 days a week.