Experiencing Various Emotional Traumas
I see and hear things that aren't there and I used to cut myself and I barely leave the house bc I'm scared of people and what they think of me, but I'm also afraid of being raped I've thought about killing myself but I just couldn't I thought about all the people that I love so dearly and how sad they would've gotten , my mom thinks I'm crazy and just wants attention buy what I want is help I feel like have so many things like depression, social anxiety, insomnia, and whatever makes you see things , back to the things I see and hear I see like dark figures and deformed people , I know I sound so crazy but I cant help it , I didn't choose this life , my sisters make fun of me bc I used to write my feelings down on sticky notes and put them on the inside of my closet door, they would read them , it would piss me off bc my parents wouldn't do anything about it ,I named the deformed people I sound crazy ugh but it bob, Jeff, tom , and Becky . I know this was all over the place but that's how I feel and a lot more
Due to the complexity of these issues, TeenHealthFX feels it is advisable for you to schedule a consultation with a reputable mental health professional such as a clinical social worker, clinical psychologist or psychiatrist to address the various issues you are dealing with.
If you live in northern New Jersey and need help finding a therapist you can call the Access Center from Atlantic Behavioral Health at 888-247-1400. Outside of this area you can log onto the US Department of Health and Human Services Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration website for referrals in your area. You can also contact your insurance company to get a list of in-network mental health providers or check with your school social worker or psychologist to get a list of referrals in your area.
While you stated you would not follow through on any suicidal thoughts, please call the National Suicide Prevention Life at 1-800-273-8255, or go to your local emergency room if you are ever at a point where you are worried about your impulses.